Emotional walls feel safer than letting people see the real you, but those same walls sometimes keep out the good stuff too. Your Moon square Saturn means you naturally put duty before feelings, which makes you incredibly reliable but can leave you feeling emotionally starved. You have this way of critiquing your own reactions before anyone else gets the chance, and while that protects you from judgment, it also makes spontaneous joy feel almost foreign.
The flip side is that you build emotional muscle like nobody's business. When life gets tough, people turn to you because you stay steady when others fall apart. Your Saturn teaches your Moon that feelings don't have to be messy to be real, and over time you develop this amazing ability to feel deeply while keeping your feet on the ground. You just need to remember that being responsible doesn't mean being emotionally unavailable to yourself.
The Moon square Saturn transit is hitting right now and you're probably feeling like your heart wants one thing while your responsibilities demand another. Your emotions are running high but Saturn keeps reminding you about all those duties and limitations you can't ignore. It's like wanting to stay home and process your feelings but knowing you have deadlines to meet or people counting on you.
This tension between what you feel and what you must do is actually building some serious emotional muscle. Sure, dealing with authority figures or rigid rules feels extra draining when the Moon is involved, but you're learning to honor both your inner world and your outer commitments. The key is finding ways to be responsible without completely shutting down your emotional needs. Think of it as emotional boot camp that's making you stronger and more mature in how you handle pressure.